My Drugs

This is a list of many of the men I have written about on this blog. Since I don’t want to get sued I’m such a nice person, I’ve given them all pseudonyms.

HC is a married man I was seeing right before I came into program. You can read about him here and here.

Joe Turner is some shady idiot.

Ethan is a sociopath I was hooked on for a long time.

Peter was my first (and probably worst) boyfriend. I also wrote about him here.

Dennis Ok, I lied. Dennis was my actual first boyfriend but he barely counts.

Jonathan is a liar and a cheater.

Mr. Fat Cock, Fat Wallet has the distinction of actually being a nice guy… well, as nice as one can be while regularly cheating on his wife.

Creepy Daddy is, well, just that.

Jane was a little girl who I was in love with even though she was mean to me.

Leigh is the worst casual encounter I have had the displeasure of encountering.

Carson is the last guy I acted out with. I actually wrote about him while I was seeing him. You can read about him here, here, and here.

Anthony is the closest I’ve ever coming to being in love. I wrote about him here, here, and here.

Nathan is someone I had sex with out of pity.

The Plastic Surgeon is a date rapist. I told this story in two parts: here, and here.

Of course not all of my posts are about men. Most of them are about my recovery and what I’ve found out about myself along the way. But I know the acting out stories are usually the ones that are the most “fun” to read. If you are new to my blog, I invite you to click around and find out more about me.

I’ll keep updating and adding to this list.

6 comments on “My Drugs

  1. Nice to see fellow travelers sharing their experiences. You can find mine at and of course in the book LOVE ADDICT: SEX, ROMANCE AND OTHER DANGEROUS DRUGS. You may find some humor and healing there as well 🙂

  2. Castimonia says:

    One thing I have learned in my own recovery was that unhealthy people attract other unhealthy people. There was a reason only pornstars, prostitutes, strippers, and female sex addicts were attracted to me and I to them, the exception being my wife whom I met when I had some “white-knuckle” sobriety and some mental health. The healthier we become, the healthier our relationships become and those unhealthy people that were previously attracted to are no longer attractive and they are no longer attracted to us.

    • Imperfect says:

      Thank you for reminding me of this. I’ve not yet reached the point in my recovery where I can start sober dating, but I have a lot of fear that I am exclusively attracted/attractive to unavailable, unhealthy people and when I do start dating again, it will be more of the same.

      • Castimonia says:

        With healthy minds come a difference in whom we are attracted to and who finds us attractive. This is at a subconcious level as well. On the conscious side, we can speak in healthy terms and reject those that intrude on our personal boundaries. Speaking in healthy terms (I speak a lot about my Christ) tends to turn off unhealthy people.

  3. Danny says:

    Is this about drugs?

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